Friday, March 2, 2012

Bring it On

 

Of course, to have children--or simply to experience great love for any person at all--is to throw yourself wide open to the possibility of pain at any moment.      Lee Smith, RD 12/11

 

Someone said something like this to me years ago, but it is only that I am living this moment that I truly understand. 

I am reminded of our move from Idaho; our best friends had moved the year before, Russ had been bored at work for some time, and I was relatively unconnected.  Ten weeks after Russ interviewed in North Carolina we left Idaho.  I felt sadness, certainly.  But no more.

This experience could not be more different.  This experience has been filled with uncertainty and surprise and heartbreak.  But I keep reminding myself—who really wants to live a life, especially for 17 years, that you can leave without a backwards glance? 

Not me.  I want to be fully engaged in my life, deeply rooted.  And I tell myself, when the pain of heartbreak threatens to overwhelm me—that this is the price of living and loving deeply.  And that I wouldn’t have changed a thing...

Bring it on….

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