Scripture Study dilemma

For more than a decade, when I have been studying the scriptures it's been a very very slow study. So slow that I've been doing this off and on for 11 years and I'm almost done with 2nd Nephi. I did take the concussion years off, the Isaiah chapters dragged on and on, and from time to time have been reading other scripture. But still, it's just so slow. 

So I had resolved that this was it. That I was done with the slow method and I was going to go back to a regular reading with journaling when moved by the spirit. But because I am a little orderly, I decided that I'd make the switch after 2nd Nephi. (Which is one of my favorite places in the Book of Mormon, and if any part of the Book of Mormon deserved a minute examination it would be this part.) 

I wasn't going to write exactly what I'm doing because it just seems like such a ridiculous way to study the scriptures, but I think I need to include it.  Many many years ago I noticed that my mom had a spiral notebook by her scriptures, and when I looked at it, it was clear that she was rewriting the verses from the New Testament in her own words. Young me did not understand what she was doing at all. Older me, when Russ lost his job in North Carolina at the end of 2011, had the idea that it might be good to make sure that I understood each verse well enough to be able to restate it in my own words. Typically what I do is read through the chapter, then write in my scripture journal, verse by verse, what the scriptures mean in my own modern words. This is not always as easy as it sounds. Often I find myself using a child's version of the Book of Mormon that we loved for our children to see what words that author has used. After I am done with my "analyzing" I also write down the insights that have come to me throughout the chapter, which I keep written on a sheet of scrap paper until I'm ready to write them down in my scripture journal.

Yesterday I was working with a couple of verses in 2 Ne 31. The spirit brought me some really good insights as I was working with those verses. As I wrote them down on my scrap paper I was excited to be able to include them in my scripture journal.

And then the question occurred to me, would the insights still come as much if I wasn't moving so slowly? If I wasn't really immersed in each verse one at a time?

I don't know the answer. But it could be that I have read the entirety of the Book of Mormon through enough times in my life that going this slowly for the next many decades might not be a terrible thing. 🤔

Family Letter 2022

Happy New Year! 2022 was an amazing year for our family, filled with many beautiful adventures and a few difficult ones as well. I’m excited to be able to tell you about it in this format, with lots of pictures. (If you're reading this on your phone and wish the pictures showed up bigger--you can click on the picture and then enlarge it.)

Sadly we were all together only once in 2022, at the beach in North Carolina. But our week together was terrific, and thankfully we've had other time together in smaller groups throughout the year.

Back: Kate, Cindy Lynn, Mahon, Josh, Jason, Danny, Ruth, Rachel
Front: Jenna, Cindy, Russ, Ashley, Jared

Russ had quite the year. In his job at Intel he’s been the manager of a small group with just 2 other people that supports a much larger group. As a manager he’s had to take all sorts of different trainings, figure out how best to use the resources available to give his co-workers raises and bonuses, and finally in this last part of the year to worry about who was still going to have a job going in to the next year. After months of worry we found out just this afternoon that he is still employed, but the experience has been so unsettling that we are still going forward with our photo organizing business.

Russ’s favorite parts of the year (I don’t even have to ask him this!) were spent looking at the ocean. After our week at the beach with our kids and our friends’ kids we spent another week in a small condo with just our friends. As our families have gotten older/bigger/grandchildren we’ve realized that we don’t have a lot of time to hang out with our friends at the beach like we used to, so this second week has been wonderful. He also enjoyed spending time with me in the beautiful ocean of Hawaii in October. By then we already knew that there was a possibility of layoffs, but the trip was already paid for so we figured we might as well have a last hurrah if that’s what it turned out to be. We spent hours every day in the ocean looking at the fish and true to his turtle whisperer nickname, he found one turtle on our very last snorkel. Besides cooking great Sunday dinners for us every week, Russ’s other favorite hobby has been watching families on YouTube who live on sailboats and sail around the world.

My 2022 was a year that felt very “best of times/worst of times.” I spent the whole year having online book clubs with different groups of women that were just wonderful and fed my soul. In the early spring my NC book club reunion was back in Durham, and it was terrific. I spent some time in Utah with our families, and in September took a wonderful trip to CT to spend a week with Jason, Ruth, and (especially, of course) Danny! I had looked forward to that visit for months, but did not expect that it would be my second trip there of the year.

(Healthy) time with Danny in Sept.

In June I’d convinced Cindy Lynn to go on a once in a lifetime trip to swim with dolphins in the Bahamas. Not a choreographed dolphin swim, but going out on the ocean every afternoon with a guide who was very knowledgeable about dolphin behavior and getting in the water when we found calm, interested dolphins. It was a beautiful trip, but also much more exertion than either of us had expected. I wasn’t feeling great by the time we left Bimini, and then the air conditioner in the Miami airport was broken and I felt even worse. Our plane left Miami late and we missed our connection for Portland at JFK. Before we were able to get our bags and make it to our hotel near JFK, I had started throwing up. The first year we lived in Oregon I had a bad experience with a supplement that caused gastritis, and I found out that I have something called cyclical vomiting syndrome.  Which just means that once I've started throwing up, I can't stop.  I haven’t thought of it much in the intervening years, but that night I desperately wished I was traveling with medication. In the middle of the night I went to the ER there in Queens, and let’s just say that the ER in Queens is a whole different ball game than the ER here in little Hillsboro! Back at the hotel, Cindy Lynn had fortunately packed an extra day of all of the different medications she needs to deal with her cystic fibrosis, but she knew she still had to fly home that day. She called Jason in Connecticut and told him that he needed to come to the hotel so that he could pick me up from the hospital when I was discharged. Then I laid in the dark hotel room for 2 days until I felt strong enough to ride a shuttle 2 hrs to New Haven, where I pretty much laid in their bed (or occasionally on the floor) for the next week. I didn’t eat for a week, lost 13 lbs, and it took me a full month to feel recovered after I got home. It was the kind of misery I wouldn’t wish on anyone and I was unbelievably grateful to have kids who took such good care of me.

Cindy Lynn & I surrounded by sting rays!

Cindy Lynn spent the year working on her next book, No Matter the Distance, which comes out February 21st and will be the first-ever traditionally published novel about cystic fibrosis that’s by an author with CF. She has gotten really interested in trees and plants and particularly making medicinal salves from them. When covid rates were low in 2022 they traveled to Connecticut to visit Jason's family, and in the fall to Utah and Idaho. Cindy Lynn is my favorite kid because she came to swim with dolphins with me in the Bahamas. She still homeschools 9-year-old Kate, who loves reading, art, and knows more about cats than most adults.

Cindy Lynn, Kate, and Mahon

Cindy Lynn’s husband, Mahon, graduated this summer with a Master’s in Artificial Intelligence from Georgia Tech. Mahon spent 11 months of the year designing software for a company that helps organize clinical trials, but was unexpectedly laid off at the beginning of December. He’s seeing this as a blessing in disguise since now he has more time to work on his robotic pantry while he's looking for a new job. I have had to stop doubting Mahon–every time he says he’s going to make something amazing or fantastic I secretly doubt him and then he always does it! So I’m looking forward to the unveiling of the robotic pantry one day and am ready to offer up mine as a beta installation.

Touring Yale--Jason with Danny in the stroller,
Mahon behind Cindy Lynn in her wheelchair holding Kate

Jason, Ruth, and Danny (19 months) are having a mostly grand old time in Connecticut! Jason is finishing up his final year of his Chemistry PhD and is VERY ready to get out of the "hell hole" that is grad school and find a job in biotech where they "treat people like people." We are excited for him to have that too! In his non-school time he loves video games, board games, his new calling as choir director, and painting mini figurines that go with one of his games.

Ruth, Danny, and Jason

Ruth on the other hand absolutely loves her job leading the marketing team at Cogstate. She has recently taken up embroidery as a hobby, loves reading, a good Zumba workout, and all things Disney+. Danny is ALL toddler and an adorable "agent of chaos"! He aggressively loves books, singing, and dumping all items out of any container in his path. Jason is my favorite child, as he came and rescued me in NYC, and let me hang out with cute Danny while I was recovering. And by hang out I mean lay on the couch and watch him play mostly, since at that point reading him one book was enough to wipe me out for a whole day!

Josh, Jared, and Jason

Josh is working at Intel and sharing a house with a friend about 20 minutes away from us. We love that he comes over for Sunday dinner every week and several times during the week to spend time with Tiger. He still loves snowboarding as much as he can at Mount Hood, and surfing at the coast. Mt Hood has one of the longest snowboarding seasons, and Josh was able to snowboard and surf in the same month last summer! Josh is my favorite child because he comes to hang out with Tiger and clean the litter box several times a week.

Josh & Rachel after a day of surfing at the coast

Rachel is working on her final year of classes at BYUI. She'll walk at graduation in April and then student teach in the fall. In the summer she taught swimming lessons in the neighborhood every morning and worked at Jersey Mike's in the afternoons. She enjoyed surfing with Josh over the summer and she and Jenna got together with one of their high school friends regularly to twirl their rifles. She has better roommates this year which we're enormously grateful for. Rachel is my favorite child because she's always happy to watch a chick flick or Christmas movie with me.

Rachel

Jenna switched her major to software engineering in 2022. She was such a good summer employee at Jersey Mikes that the whole place basically fell apart when she and Rachel left! Jenna has had great roommates she connected with through Instagram this school year, and they’ve become some of her favorite people. She enjoys playing guitar, volunteering at the cat shelter, and taking pole dancing classes (but not, she adds, “in a stripper way”). She got to see her favorite band, Greta Van Fleet, in concert, and painted a cool jacket to wear there. Jenna is my favorite child because she's always happy to go hiking with me, and hiking is definitely one of my love languages.

Jenna

Jared loves snowboarding and has been able to teach snowboarding at Sundance for the last two winters. Last winter, he went snowboarding more than one hundred days! He also spent a lot of time rock climbing, as well as hiking and camping with his wife Ashley, this summer. They built a bed into the back of their Ford Escape for a great camping setup. Jared worked at a physical therapy clinic for a lot of this year. He’s still at BYU, but hoping to graduate in a little over a year with a degree in exercise science. Jared is my favorite child because he sends me beautiful pictures from the snowy mountains.

Ashley & Jared

Speaking of Ashley we're so happy to be able to report that her leg has healed and she is back to normal. Being hit by the car in the first half year of their marriage added a lot of stress to that first year, and they have loved being able to do fun things together this last year. Ashley is going to school at UVU studying recreation management and also working in the office at Sundance. She loves houseplants, makes cool original embroidery, and is always practicing her snowboarding.

We hope you've enjoyed the picture-heavy version of the annual Ray family newsletter! We love keeping in touch with each of you and love when we get to hear what you've been up to. Thanks for being a part of our lives,

Russ, Cindy, & co.

Jared, Cindy Lynn, Josh, Rachel, Jason, & Jenna

Contact info:
Russ russray@gmail.com
Cindy crayz2sew@gmail.com
Cindy Lynn storygirlcindy@gmail.com
Mahon (and his robotic pantry ideas) mbbaldwin@gmail.com
Russ & Cindy's photo organizing business:
RCphotosolutions@gmail.com or RCphotosolutions.com