Earlier this week someone made a comment to me about Russ losing his job. I knew that their family had experienced financial difficulty before and that they expected to be able to commiserate with me verbally. (i.e. pity party)
Let me just say for the record, I am not going there.
When we joined a local Christian homeschooling group many years ago they presented me with a piece of paper containing their Statement of Faith. Their statement of faith was not one I could completely agree with, but since then I've loved the idea of either an organizational or personal statement of faith. It seems a good time to write down some of the thoughts that are in mine...
I love our life. I have loved Russ's job. I have loved having a measure of financial security. I love my house and I love Durham and our Durham friends and family. But I am willing to give it all up if that's what God wants of/from us. I trust that He has our best interests in mind. I trust that He knows what we most need and where we most need it. I trust that our family can find happiness wherever we are together. I believe that He can comfort our deep sadness at the thought of leaving this beautiful place and the people we love here. I even believe that I can survive without being able to go to the ocean multiple times a year. (And that's saying a lot!)
I refuse to fight it. I am trying not to whine too much, and instead to pay close attention to all of the many evidences that God is active in and aware of our lives. And I really and truly and fully believe that one day we will look back on this and give thanks for everything that happened and how it turned out. I Believe That.
Sometimes, the Lord sends His blessings in such a highly unusual, dramatic, or precisely timed manner, that it might be likened to a 'divine signature.' It is as though the Lord 'signs' the blessing personally so that we will know with certainty that it comes from Him. In doing so, God not only gives us the blessing, but at the same time He strengthens our faith and deepens our testimony of Him.
Here is this week's divine signature in my life. My desk has been piled high with mounds of stuff since I started working on the kitchen. Normally I use my computer at my desk, but in the last two months I haven't at all. Last week I started trying to clear things off of it--every time I walked by I would pick up a thing or two. I made a little progress, but not enough to actually sit there and work.
On Thursday I had a meeting and then a long hair appointment, so I knew I would be gone for 5-6 hours. At some point I started thinking that it had probably been too long since I'd backed my computer up (since the external hard drive & backup software sit on my desk) and that I should probably go ahead and do it. I left the house in a hurry, but asked Russ as I left if he would plug my computer into the hard drive and make sure the backup started. I didn't think another thing about it.
I didn't even think about it on Friday night when I stumbled and dropped the computer. (Somewhere between 6 and 18 inches, depending on who's version of the incident you're going to believe.)
I didn't think of it again until Saturday night, when my computer suddenly refused to complete an order on amazon and subsequently refused to reboot.
And you can believe I thought of it when Russ said he thought the hard drive was dead.
All I can think now is,
And I know that the answer is that there are no odds in the world that are that good. I am astonished and deeply grateful, and I am certain that the timing is doing just what Elder Lund said it would... not just giving me the blessing (of not losing so much of my life that is contained in that computer) but also of helping to strengthen my faith and deepen my testimony of Him.
In conclusion, let me say that if you want to talk about the joy you feel when you see the hand of the Lord in your life, I'm your gal. If you want we can trade experiences where we know the Holy Ghost was working in our lives and shake our heads with astonishment that it sounded just like every other thought in our heads. If you want someone to affirm your faith with or to share the scriptures that are standing out in your mind and heart and bringing you comfort in troubled times, give me a call.
But that other? I'm just not gonna go there with you...
PS. When we put the bread in the oven tonight it seemed to be working just fine. When the timer went off 30 minutes later the bread was still mostly (very well risen) raw dough. Looks like the bottom element of the oven has stopped working. At this point it just makes me laugh...
This is beautiful! And sorry about the oven...
ReplyDeleteWe had the very same problem with our oven here- I'm guessing yours is at least not from the 1950's and the part should take less than 2 months to arrive!
ReplyDeleteI LOVE you statement of faith! But....what did you say to the pity party person? That's my problem- I never know how to tactfully steer the conversation away from places I'd rather not go.
Katie--that I do not know, and wish I did. Suggestions, anyone?
ReplyDeleteHow about a brief statement of testimony {"It's a little scary, but I know the Lord will take care of us. He always has.") and then change the subject?
ReplyDeleteI thought of you at our ward Christmas party as we re-watched the Church's new Nativity video. I thought of the 'chances' that Mary and Elizabeth were both from the same family and both having similar experiences and wondered if it was because their family had been "raised well" and then it occurred to me...
ReplyDeleteit was a tender mercy that Heavenly Father placed them each in a position where they would know and could comfort and truly empathize with each other as they both underwent something really no one else COULD truly understand. {I don't think I'm wording that very well, but it was such an eye-opening perspective for me. Another testament to how perfectly Heavenly Father's plan unfolds -- especially when we are willing to do our part as they were.}