Disconnecting

For a couple of weeks now I have been disconnecting myself from my earthlink email address.  Each day I would unsubscribe to a handful of emails, always surprised that the next day still more came that I needed to deal with.  Some of the unsubscribes were relatively easy—requiring only the click of a button and they were done.  Some were harder and took much longer to navigate.

I feel like I have spent the last two weeks saying goodbye to people that I love.  Some of the goodbyes were bittersweet but not painful—friendships and church associations that have been lovely and pleasant.  But others—oh, they have been so much harder.  People who have been dear to me, who have been part of the fabric of my life.  I have hated saying goodbye to friends as they move out of our ward a family or two at a time—this having to say goodbye to all of my people at once was almost more than I could wrap my brain (or my heart) around.  It hurt. 

I keep reminding myself that I am lucky to have many people to love, fortunate to love and be loved deeply.  How lonely and unsatisfying life life would be without these relationships.  But oh how hard it is to say goodbye…